Don't Post!

Sometimes I get really miserable. There isn't usually a sound or even a remotely plausible reason for it, but it just happens. When I was younger it was daily part of my life. I know each time (now) that the feeling will pass and that I should just wait it out. There doesn't need to be a trigger, but as one might suspect, such things ease the process.

Its very strange for me. When I was younger these feelings were much more common. Now they are sparse but still a hassle. Because I am aware that they will pass shortly I don't act on or stress about them. However, when I was younger it wasn't so easy. I did stupid things to ease the pain. And they worked well enough. When I smoked I often put the cigs out on my arms or in the palm of my hands. The pain created there would temporarily allow me to forget my mental pains.

Exposed

Its been a long time since I've written (read: published) an entry. It became too much of a hassle for a number of reasons. I still have much to say, but as a wise friend once told me, "Don't write down anything you don't want read." This advice may not apply to everything, but it must be considered for everything you write down. After all, when we write it, we aren't usually considering the possible consequences.

Songkran is well in the works at the moment. This is the insane lunar new years festival that is especially famous in Chiang Mai as the centre city is surrounded by a moat. I don't really feel the need to explain this holiday. I'm not even sure if I can. Its one of those things you just need to experience. I don't want to waste energy trying to describe it. Perhaps one day if I'm in a better mood.