Mad World

I have been pretty down the past couple of days. Part of this I attribute to having run out of Zoloft and in realizing this would happen I have been taking half my normal dosage lately. Part of this I attribute to a handful of bad things that have happened to me lately. Of course, bad things happen to me every day so I don't really put much weight on that.

As for my latest story, I am officially single again! This is actually quite nice, but I don't know how long it will last. My fake girlfriend has broke up with me so many times that I no longer feel anything but relief when it happens. This time it seems that her friend caught me on film with my arm(s) around some other girl that her friend knows or something silly. I hope I can get a hold of this picture/film at some point because I want to see how I look in action.

I've been feeling restless lately. The beginning of a new year approaches and its the first 3-4 months of the year that tend to be my best in regards to my female adventures. I prefer to be single around this time as December just tends to be miserable for me and January I am reborn albeit for a few short months of confident debauchery.

I told the sort-of-gf in question last night about how restless I have been feeling lately. The conversation went something like this ...

Me: I want to sleep with lots of girls now.
Her: Well, I understand. You can if you want to, but don't lie to me about it.
Me: I never lie about anything.
Her: Have you slept with anyone lately that I don't know about?
Me: Nope.

I have been able to control myself for the most part, but I have been getting crazy lately. I have been out attacking girls left and right. I have been rather surprised at my own aggressiveness the past week or so. I scored 11 phone #'s over the weekend. And I managed to remember the names of 4 of them. That must be a record or something. Its ok though as I'm still talking to 6 of them, but 2 of their spots in my phone are silly semi-drunken code words for where I met them. Its not a perfect system because my phone is so old that I have to abbreviate to the point where the next day I can not be certain to decipher the code, but its all I can do. If you looked through my phone you would probably be slightly more confused then I even if you knew the names of the spots that I met these peoples at. Part of the problem is that there just aren't enough nicknames.

Let me show you a few examples of the first few names in my phone to give you an idea:

Air
Air WarmUp
Amp
Amp2
AmpDaily
AnnBangkok
AnnPayap
AnnWarmUp
Ann?
AnnMyspace

Seriously, I need a better system. Just looking at that list, there are 3 numbers of whom I have no clue who they might be. Although my old crappy phone's memory is full at 225 or whatever, there is probably only 70ish names in the phone. Its kind of like how the majority of Koreans have one of 6 last names.

I didn't sleep last night. And I finally felt my first earthquake. I have been through a number of them in Thailand, but I was always asleep or on the 1st floor. Now that I live on the top floor, I get to feel them! My bed shook in a circular motion (as usual, but in a different way) for 3-4 seconds a bit after midnight. I ran out on my balcony hoping to see the city aflame and chaos abound, but alas it was over before I got there. Maybe next time.

Worst of all is that the damned recording industry has decided that guitar tabs are now copyright infringement. Wtf!? If some fools want to listen to a song and guess/improvise the chords to songs so the average loser can jam without learning to read music, can't we just let my people jam? I'm starting to think I should be hording tabs and saving them on my com rather than letting the less-reliable-every-day internet be my resource. Of course my connection is such crap that I would never really do that haha. Shit. I suppose I wouldn't care so much if I was able to buy a nice keyboard, but because I am stuck with my crappy backpacker guitar and its lack of sound, I gotta make music somehow. I've been singing a lot lately, but piano is where its at. Guitar for me is kind of like a fake girlfriend. Its occasionally better than nothing, but you never really achieve satisfaction.